Friday, June 15, 2007
random thots....
sometimes i wonder whats the point of holding onto something when your heart is longer there, when faith diminish, when you no longer find meaning in it. maybe im just too focused on finding meaning to sustaintiate what im doing, but this senseless way of letting each day pass is really getting on my nerves.
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sometimes im stuck in the gray area. i know not if its my bias that has clouded the friendship or has the foundation been weak all along. tired of pondering over whats the root of the prob. just allow me to escape from this dilemma. sorry for my incapacity to be a good friend.
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do i not dare to take up the challenge or am i really drained from taking on the forefront? perhaps all is an excuse to my incapacity. deep down inside, i do feel a tingling desire to explore the possibility, but my mind forbid such dangerous desire. it reminded me of the past scars and the present consequence. perhaps the trauma was exaggerated but i do know i do not want repetition.
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the lovely breath of holiday has been overwhelmed by the tension of facing deadlines and exams. yr3 is really no joke. tension's raising and human nature's surfacing? i shivered at the thought of "competition of the fittest". is it really that case? i just hope to finish school with satisfaction and happy friendship.
::huIfaNg:: at 10:28 AM
