Saturday, March 31, 2007
there is a big prob but no one seem to notice or rather no one seem to address its importance...should i do it? i no longer have a clear answer...as afterall the drive is no longer there and im tired of giving myself more problems to solve than i can handle....
perhaps just let it go and see how things develop....if no one really cares about it i think i'll just keep my silence. excessive suggestions might just bring more unjust to myself than anything else. haha...selfish me.
::huIfaNg:: at 12:37 AM
Thursday, March 29, 2007
yoyoyoyoyoyo.....haha...this is so exciting...sunday is coming...that means my trip to cameron highland and ophir is nearer!!!! hee....will be going to cameron with a bunch of poly frenz fromm 1-4/4 and following is mt ophir climb with my cc n scout frenz from 6-8/4....and both are super exciting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
just did an online search about both trips....woa...so looking forward to the great cooling climtae in cameron...the pretty greenary....the sweet strawberry....the amazing orang asli village and perhaps some good food and adventure!!! hahaha.....next up is the mt ophir climb i've been longing for!!!!! had been pestering my mum to let me go up for a mountain for so long and finally it realise and its just a few days away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! muahahahahahaha......oh man...i saw the photo posted online...its fantastic! the majestic waterfall....the satisfaction of a climb...the friendship and compainship.....and most of all....its my dream!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha.....omg....i cant contain my excitement....cant wait for the day to come....hee....will be going with a good company i guess...look forward to rendering support to each other and motivating each other to strive on to take a breath of the air up on the mountain....i cant wait.....ophir ophir faster come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
::huIfaNg:: at 11:07 PM
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
oops....i can see all the accumulation of spider webs in this webpage o.O haha....haven beeen here for ages man...ever since attachment started i guess....
well....attachment just ended last week. it was a pretty good experience i guess. =) was grateful to have a good sup with me. nothing much happen since the last post....just that i had my 21st bdae....had a whole string of march to charity event....had a scout camps....been having tons of meeting in the cc....yup yup
well...my bdae was actually nothing special. a couple of meals and presents and well wishes. had wanted to throw a party of sorts but mum was pretty stressed by it so cancelled. had wanted a night cyclign event but didnt have much time to plan anything for it coz attachment and had to prepare for an event near my bdae. was slightly disappointed with the quietness of this supposedly special day but neevrtheless im still gladd there are people who remembered and made an effort to celebrate with me. sincere thanks! =)
attachment was mixture of joy and stress. was pretty affected by an incident but im glad i can convinced myself to get over it and become stronger after that. perhaps the best reward from this attachment is that i get to understand myself better, know what are my limitation and strength. im grateful that all the stress didnt get me down and i survived the whole thing. =)
march to charity finally ended. it was the longest event i had had so far i guess.....7 phases of event in total of 3 months....we muz b crazy man...but it's really warming to know that the last phase not only create joy for the elderly but also create meaning for some of the volunteers. really grateful that we decided to make a last phase....really glad that the event pulled through despite such lousy last minute planning from me...really really happy to see all the sweet smiles on the ah ma face and really really touched by some of the ah ma's genuine sisterhood "i want to pack this fries back for those who didnt come here today"....her statement kept ringing in my ears and the warmness of their hugs remained in my body....thats sufficient....thats good enough to make up my days and washed away all the weariness and unhappiness in life. for them who live strong despite all ordeals, i have to live stronger....
honestly i was pretty affected by the ah ma's sisterhood....wanting to share the good food with her frenz back in the home. i was thinking, years down the roads, will i have such frenz who will constantly keep me in her/his mind whenevr she/he is going through a smooth/rough patch. perhaps all these while i had been too busy to make time to care for and understand the friends around me...perhaps all these while i hadnt spend enuff time and effort to build up a meaningful friendship....perhaps im a superficial person.
suan le...regrets are inevitable in this world...just have to learn from it and perhaps fill it up or not make another similar regret again...
::huIfaNg:: at 12:53 AM
