Monday, May 29, 2006
been taking a lot of photo of my neighbourhood and my school environment these days for my creativity project...my theme is "nature in my environment"...hee...found it pretty interesting as i always long to totally surround myself in nature for inner peace and relaxation but i neglect the fact that nature is all around me. i just need a little bit of exploration and open mindedness to accept and find meaning in the little things around me that i take for granted. yup yup...some photo that i found interesting n my personal fav:hee...my school fountain...like the sepia effect =) 
my reflection in the water...haha...im bored ^^v
my proudest masterpiece! haha...guess whats the focus? its actually my friend in the backgrd...so fun! =D
my first attempt...found the tiltness is v special ^.^
hee...feel free to give any comment so that i can improve on the pictures...hee...~when at loss of what to do, just do the minimum and only what should be done and within scope. other than that, just dont care ba...thats an arrangement others will be pleased and glad to have. no point being a nuisance for nothing. nobody understands, even me. seems like im the only one trapping others and myself. time to wake up and be sensible~
::huIfaNg:: at 7:46 PM
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
this is a super overdued en3...had wanted to type this since last week but blogspot was kinda down...at least the time i log in it was down. ok...some tracing back....though its pretty haphazard...
12-13/5 amazing racegrp 1 kx yw jl ey et
grp 2 wy sam cas ch yf
ml my cm ht to yz jh den yz yc
hm... it was pretty fun though with some unforseen circumstances. most memorable...somehow it has to be the stupid sabotages....kana smashed by cake when its not even my bdae....kana thrown into the sea UNWILLINGLY. the guys even had to swing me before throwing me into the sea, i landed hard n i think i scratched my leg too...bish bish...haha...but it was ok la...though i feel the closing of the event was a little diaO...
there was a time when i thought i could not carry on but thankfully nat was there to support me...thx a bunch gal! thx for the timely reminder. =) ~ no matter how unwilling u r, u r alr in it. perserve and make your best time in there~ these may not be the exact words but i guess the meaning is in there. thx. =)
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life was a buzz after the fun, rushing mad for the upcoming camp youthnique and the ever piling school work... but in the midst of all hustle, there seem to be something lacking...something beyond me now...
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just wana share another inspiring lesson by my ppr lecturer last week:
which is more difficult: listening or talking?
to listen,
you do so with your heart
you empathise and BE THERE
you put away all other distraction
be it in the environment or in the mind
and just listen
to talk,
you must trust to share your thoughts
you must be truthful to face the vulnerable you
which is easier? both r no mean feat.... when she ask the question initially i said listening was the easiest without hesitation. but after her explanation, i felt listening is more than just listening. i'm not up to the task yet... it is the same as talking... not there yet...
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maybe my expectation of self is too high. mayb im imposing my expectation on others subconsciously. no matter what happens, face these emotions and try to carry on... i need tons of patience and loads of tolerance....
::huIfaNg:: at 12:11 AM
Sunday, May 07, 2006
any other thing, just leave it till after the race.
juz wan to have a fun time with those i truely treasure.
~70% confirmed.
::huIfaNg:: at 2:55 PM
Friday, May 05, 2006
a day where u say a goodbye from the bottom of the heart
a day where u really give up and carry on
a day where u feel assured to move on or
a day where u totally feel dejected and useless
no matter what
i hope that day will come soon,
soon enough before i lose myself further
soon enough before i meet the valley end.
sometimes it juz seem to be me, and me only
no longer want to ask why
no longer want to persuade or pursuit
no longer want to argue or fight
do what you want
do what you think is good for you
i will just do what need be
something are just beyond my control
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had been looking forward to weekend ever since monday but now that friday evening has come, it didnt seem to be particularly exciting or happening. whatever~
~you will never dicover true joy unless you resolve the issues.harping on the same old issues for ages but never wanting to resolve it. im just a boring person.
::huIfaNg:: at 7:01 PM
