Saturday, September 16, 2006
had a pleasant day today! =)
started off with a nice hangout with the s06 gals ^^V huilian, weixian, natalie, huishan n me. bugis tcc. hee...nice atmosphere, nice cakes and drinks and interesting topic. huilian shared with us some creepy happenings in her studio...really unbelieveable man...the mouse moved by itself and communicate with the users via calculator and words, believed to be a thing following her friend...hm....scary scary thots =.= nevertheless its really nice to get together to update on each other. big thanks to huilian for organising! =) met quite a few people in bugis too...haha....such coincidence....
left to meet another friend for dinner. nice food and great conversation! had a long talk and guess what he said was pretty true, before we do anything, it's impt to know what our expectation and the kind of outcome we expect. think positive and be open minded. dun avoid but instead learn to work with difficult people. it seems like simple fact of life but not mnay can practise and bring it across convincingly. he did just that n i felt much lighter after talking to him so a big thanks to him (though i dun think he read this, haha)
yup yup! thanks to all my lovely friends who brighten up my weekend! woohoo....two more weeks to end of clinical and to my long awaited holiday!! =) go go go!
::huIfaNg:: at 10:21 PM
hee...another weekend! this week was pretty fine but i think im being too slack in my clinical..time to brush up else i will not b able to maximise learning there...=) i quite like a few of the clients there....particularly those granny....they are super nice and dear to heart. every lunch time they'll ask if i've eaten and they'll share with me their stories and everything, seeing how positively they face life despite their condition really inspired me...one of them said, "just do what u like la!" hmpX
had a great chill out with meli n wt at marina sq yest. we met in sch to do some research be4 heading to marina for super late dinner....nice time @ billy bomber! nice food and stupid us just kept laughing...haha... my wonderful crappy masterpiece with the leftover...tada!!!
hee...its really a great chill out after a week of work! sitting down there sharing, chatting, crapping, laughing, making a fool of ourself (mayb perhaps only me =.= haha) hee...mayb sld have it again next week... =)
::huIfaNg:: at 1:05 PM
Saturday, September 09, 2006
clinical so far is doing ok...nice people conducive learning environment. hopefully things will continue to go smoothly.
sometimes cant help but feel a sense of incompetence. dont know if its my high expectation of self or is things really that way. satisfaction seems far yet disappointment seems to be piling. mayb i do have lots to learn from the elderly, to use a positive outlook on life might make me happier.
though escape might not be the true route to finding happiness, but its the fastest way to give temporary happiness. once trust has been betrayed, no matter how much i try, i just cant remove the wall that has been established. im sorry but that's the furthest i can go.
sometimes i just feel like isolating myself from the world. to live in my small world, to be away from the troubles and problems. i need therapy.
::huIfaNg:: at 12:49 PM
Sunday, September 03, 2006
happie ^^V
went escape today with bx, meli, wt today! hee... fun fun fun! i love karting!!!!!!! omg! its the first time i tried it and the feeling is sensational! driving at the top speed, zooming past people and being totally in control... there is nothing on my mind then except embracing the wind that brushes past my face and enjoying the victorious feel of emerging first. bixia and i kicked up a fight and it was really a close fight! i guess she could have won me if i didnt have a headstart. i was a pretty unsteady and reckless driver and as she said, she could have overtaken me but cldnt coz i was too dangerous...haha...but anyway thats me when i was having fun, seriously dangerous and with no safety precaution. =.= till now i still miss the adrenaline rush...accelerating down the slope and paving my path to take the step ahead...oh man...i wan to kart AGAIN!
basically thats the most fun part of escape. the rest of the rides are interesting for one or two attempts but no more than that. if i were to go back there again, it'll definitly be for karting! hee...but in general its a quick relief before placement begins TOMORROW! oh man...im totally in a holiday mood sia! how to go placement?!!?! hee...in any case im still looking forward to the placement. hopefully i can get along well with my supervisor and patients! =)
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...sometimes it just felt lighter when you know how to prioritise and not push yourself to torture... mayb once the mind is made up it will not change anymore... afterall its not an impulse, its a weighted rationale...
::huIfaNg:: at 9:02 PM
Friday, September 01, 2006
haiX! so irritated! irritated! irritated!
dont know what im doing, just feel like giving up on everything and really everything! mayb a break has served its purpose and beyond. mayb whats to be is to be. something juz cannot be changed. im someone who knows what i dont wan and never know what i want =.=
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hols is coming to an end. only fun i had was the camp. quite enjoyed myself, esp all the cheering! great cheers, fun cheers, interesting cheers! haha....other than campfire, the next memorable sld be the nature rumble ba... honestly, my performance in the camp is not like super good kind but i felt challenged! challenged to improve and perform better till its satisfactory. a feeling i had long forgotten. mayb i had been kept in comfort zone for too long, where i only have to account back to myself, suddenly i felt like breaking out of the whole zone and go further... to add a new dimension to my present life....
going to clinical next week and knew my placement le. an arrangement im rather pleased with and hopefully it can propel me further in my career here. yup yup! all the best to all my classmates for the new challenge! jia youX!
::huIfaNg:: at 6:30 PM
